I'm reclaiming my poor, old, abandoned livejournal.  It has been brought to my attention that I have no blog on the internet.  I do.  I have this one, I just haven't used it in, oh, about two years.  I'm still Silence.  And I'll still write Inucest, because even after 2 years of silence, I still love inucest.  Now, however, I'm also Mamasama.  Some people will find this who only know me as one or the other.  They're both me.

I know and deeply love all my inucest and fellow yaoi readers.  I've always left this journal wide open to them.  Never requiring any kind of comments or friend requests.  However, people googling for Mamasama I tend to be a bit more careful of! You stalkers know who you are!  And since this is my blog, and a bit honest, I'm gonna finally start f-locking some of the posts.

Don't be shy.  You want to read, let me know, I'll open it up to you.

So, sorry to spam my f-lists.  But I'm back, I'm gonna clean this up a bit, and I'm gonna start adding new posts.  Sometimes my wonderful, random ramblings.  Sometimes something a bit more...erotic.  :)

*waves*

Hey all.

Happy Halloween.

I love Halloween, some of you may know that though most of you probably don't.  Since I wanted to get something posted before November, I guess Halloween is a good day to do that. 

I've actually been planning to post something to this effect since a month or so ago, November 1st was just my deadline.  I was hoping to write something steamy or at least complete as some sort of offering to make you guys like me again after I've been gone for so long.

But I have nothing.

Sorry.

I feel like a ten year old writing a back-to-school essay. *smirk*

Well, despite the fact that I vanished from every community I belong to, I actually had a very uneventful summer. No trip to Michigan, no summer classes, not even a summer job. I had plans to work on original fictions and not abandon my fanfictions. I didn't do either. I have very little (read: nothing) to say in my defense. Early this summer, Hubby put me to work on one of his MMO characters for a new game he was starting. Think, World of Warcraft...although it's not actually WoW, but pretty much the same. One sphere of this game, crafting, is extremely tedious and boring...not the cup of tea for most gamers. It was perfect for me though so I spent hours and hours a day crafting on his guy. Then, one day, after getting him his required level, I thought, "Hey, I can do this," and Mama-sama was born and my summer vanished into a flurry of sleepless nights and nothing accomplished.

So yeah, that's what I did this summer. I gamed. Sadly, I can't even claim to have uber-toons or anything...although my girls kick some serious ass. Here they are, you guys can let me know if they seem to resemble anyone you know.



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However, my guild is disbanding in 2 days and I've been so busy with school this past week (and that will extend into next week as well) that I've started getting more focused on my NaNoWriMo project this year.  Not that I've decided what to write yet.  At first, I was planning on revamping a very old Inuyasha fanfic--turn it into an original by changing the demons into elves and giving it a more classical vs Japanese background.  But after studying the Sicilian slave revolts I have another idea eating me.  It's not good for NaNoWriMo ('cause I actually like this idea vs my really stupid Sess/OC fanfic) but I think I'm gonna do it anyway.

And if anyone else is doing NaNoWriMo, drop me a line...it'll be fun *smiles insanely*

Anyway, that's about all for now.  I have to finish getting everything ready for Trick-or-Treating and I have two papers due on Friday (and an exam next week, and a paper due next week, and I have to read The Golden Ass...)  But I'm still around.  I've been on sabbatical (a working one my uncle would say since I have a very full class schedule this year), but I'm still here and I'm still working on stuff.  Not quickly but I'm doing it.

~Silence~

*sigh*  It isn't midnight yet where I live so I got this posted in time.  Here was my contribution for  censoredcontent .  It's a rough draft with only a very mild, quick rereading as a proofread so I know it's not perfect.  There are probably many, many grammar, spelling, typo, and missing word mistakes.  Also some of the scenes aren't quite right so I'm not gonna post it on mm or aff yet.  I would appreciate some feedback, however, on whether or not the descriptions were easy to follow or if some of the positions were hard to visualize.  And if you don't like the POV, let me know and I'll consider revising that as well.  Anyway, I'll stop stalling and give you some Sess/Inu smut.

Warnings: Slash, Incest, Anal, Oral, Bondage, Dubious Consent, Fingering, and Language

Disclaimer:  I do not own Inuyasha, Sesshoumaru, or any of the other characters of this story.  Most belong to Rumiko Takahashi and the one that doesn't belongs to Shinto.

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Okay, I've caught up with pretty much most of the news regarding LJ's deletions (and I think I barely skated by the mass deletion considering my rather small and pathetic interest list includes the term inucest rather than incest.)  I think what LJ did was irresponsible and they're currently busy covering their asses.  They made a rash move spurred by three very crazy ladies and instead of apologizing, they're saying they did it for the because "we have a number of journals up that we didn't think met our policies and didn't think they were appropriate."  The fact that those inappropriate journals included Harry Potter fanfiction communities, RP communities, and a Lolita (the classic novel) discussion site--in Spanish I might add--is silly only because it doesn't involve me.  If it did, I'd be pissed.  The main reason I'm not overly pissed is it's over.  No one else is getting deleted.  Six Apart knows they screwed up even if they'll never apologize.  Even the crazy ladies are saying "OMG, we didn't know rape survivors would wanna discuss rape on the internet!?!  How ebil is LJ for deleting them!!!  It's all their fault!!!  Don't blame us even if we're redneck, wanna-be activists (and I live in Oklahoma...I know redneck)." 

What I have done is joined this community censoredcontent  and on Friday I plan to post my rough draft for Sakura.  Incest is one of the ebil code words that could get someone deleted so I figured a nice smutty PWP of the inu-boys was perfect.  It's not finished...yet, but maybe this deadline will get me closer to finished.

I'm also considering adding incest and shota to my interest list.  I'm fairly certain that Six Apart isn't deleting journals anymore but what can I say, I'm curious.  And I do have an interest in shota and incest. The fact that I use the fandom based spelling inucest is the only reason I didn't get deleted so I should go ahead and give them another chance.  If, on the off chance, they delete me...well, I have a pretty small friend list.  I think I can remember all ten of you long enough to shoot you an email with my new LJ name once I set up a new account and maybe  you'll wanna friend me again.  

And since yaoi_dailyand juxtaposefantsyare still up...well, I guess my dirty little quirks can stay happy.

~Silence~

EDIT~Oh yeah, and after thinking about it for awhile, I've decided not to F-Lock my journal.  I set this up so that people could come here from fanfiction sites to see what I'm doing.  I do not require that people sign in to review on any of those sites so I will not require that people sign in to view this one.  I'm all about sharing.  I have full warnings placed on all of my works and anyone who reads them goes into them completely aware of what they are going into.  If they feel it is objectionable then they are the pervert if they read it.  I have never apologized for the content of my work and I'm not about to hide it now.

My writing tends to go in spurts--I get interested in something and then work on it then get disinterested and abandon it for awhile and work on something else.  Right now, I'm slugging along on a part two for 'The First Time'.  It's just another PWP that's vaguely connected to the first.  But really, it's a separate PWP.  So far, I'm working on page nine and I've crested 4300 words.  This is quite long for me...and the boys aren't having sex yet..  But I suspect I'll finish it today or tomorrow.

Oh, and now that the voting period is over in the Guild I'm learning all kinds of new things.  Like sex isn't conflict.  I wasn't aware of that until right now but apparently an author labeling their fic a PWP (because really, it's about sex even if there is more to it) means that there was no conflict or series of events leading to a conclusion.  I'm always amazed at what the Guild has to teach me.  First, despite the fact that Sesshoumaru has had no canon romantic entanglements within the Inuyasha, he is absolutely straight--despite the fact that he's shown no sexual interest in women specifically or that cultural standards of the time allowed men to be sexually involved with other men with no stigma and was, in fact, quite common.  Now I'm learning that stories that contain sex either have no plot or they're not as good as other stories, just more smutty.  

The Guild really has the ability to drive me insane.  Probably because I'm so used to dealing within my own circles where people tend to have the same views I do and so I forget that these things are taboo because the wider population doesn't find them socially acceptable.  The Guild is simply a smaller version of the wider population.

Anyway, hopefully I can get out my plotless, smut-filled piece devoid of any literary value out shortly.  If I finish writing it today then it'll probably take me another day to get rid of the most obvious typos and grammar mistakes that I'm capable of eliminating so just a few days.  And thanx so much to 

alicexdemented

*runs around laughing insanely while doing random, uncoordinated dances of joy*

Finally, I think szaugglaughs is trying to kill me. She's released two one-shots that are absolute must reads. In fact, after reading her stories, I always want to quit whatever original I was typing when I took a break and jump back to the Sess/Inu PWP I'm working on, 'Sakura'. Eventually, I'll get it out. It's a part two for 'The First Time.' After reading her 'Do You Have What It Takes To Be Screwed In the Ass?' of course I had to go take her quiz. I'm happy with the results, I think it fits me pretty well. Now I have to see whether I can con Hubby into answering these questions...

You are a Badass Uke!
Other uke admire you, some seme fear you. Despite your sometimes flaming appearance, you can even fool other people into thinking you are seme with your mischievous, manipulative attitude, but when push comes to shove, your true submissive nature emerges. It takes a seme with enough intensity to challenge you and keep you satisfied, and your perfect match, the Don't Fuck With Me Seme, knows that all that naughty teasing just means you want the punishment.

Most compatible with: Don't Fuck With Me Seme, Chibi Seme
Least compatible with: Sadistic Seme, Romantic Seme

What seme or uke are you? Take the experience at SemeUke.com, or find merchandise here.

Wow, I found this on snow_fall 's LJ and I'm certainly surprised. I could've sworn I'd be uke all the way...

Discover if You are Seme or Uke!
Created by ChiisaiYume on Memegen.net

This is the result if Seme-in-Training! has the highest score.

Take this quiz now - it's easy!

How tall are you?

Taller than 6’5’’ Between 6’ and 6’5’’ Between 5’5’’ and 6’ Between 5’ and 5’5’’ Shorter than 5’

I really suggest the series to anyone who might be looking for something to read.  So far, the mangaka is working of Vol 8 and I think that's supposed to be the last one (no fifty+ volumes here ;).  New chapters are released monthly in Japan.  Four volumes have been released in the US with the fifth to be released in a few weeks.  Obsession is also scanlating it for those with no money (like me, but I'll probably buy the series with my B-day money).  Their site is Ob-session.org .  There is also a short anime series on it.  Twelve episodes that can be dl'd at aarinfantasy, but I think I heard that it was licensed recently so aarinfantasy may have taken it down.  They cover the first four volumes and the final episode is completely made up for the anime...cause the series isn't finished yet and certainly wasn't at the time.

Damn. 

On a side note, do you think it's a coincidence that Seimei (my fav character in the series) is voiced by Ken Narita?  In case you're wondering, that's the Japanese voice of Sesshoumaru.

I also can't really find any decent Loveless fanfiction--besides the adorable little Zero/Yuri drabble  vixenofargentum  posted a while back.  Maybe I should switch to writing Loveless fanfiction.  Those boys even have tails, I like tails.  And I could make Seimei not crazy/insane but more disturbed.  And brother complexes don't bother me in the slightest.  I'll have to think about it.

~Silence~